I have a tendency to be very apologetic, even for things that are not my fault. Sometimes I apologize because it seems like the right thing to do or because I just want to end the quarrel. One thing I have found myself doing lately is apologizing for the decisions I make, my choices and actions whether good or bad, and my stance on things. But the biggest one is having to apologize for or defend who I am.
You know, Psalm 139:14 says “I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”
God makes no mistakes, so hear me when I say I am just as I should be. And I will make no more apologies for that. And if you still have questions, take them to my maker. I dare you to question Him. For in Jeremiah 33:2-3 He states “…I am the Lord, and I created the whole world. Ask me, and I will tell you things you don’t know and can’t find out.”
The question then becomes; Do you want to know?
I am a lot of things: a sinner, a daughter, a friend, a little stubborn still, an art lover, an idealist, but one thing I am not is a mistake. People get so offended by lives that have absolutely nothing to do with them. Why? Why are you so offended by me? And I use “you” as a general term. Because most of us have people around us who dislike us for reasons they are not even sure of. And that is so funny to me! I am just living the best life that I know how. If you did the same, you may not be so concerned with mine. Just a thought. ;)
Stop allowing people who have no weighing on your life to interrupt your life, to still your joy, to cause you to apologize for simply being you. You are perfectly made. I am rough around the edges at times, but that doesn’t change my core. It should not change yours either.
Happy Tuesday, which totally feels like a Monday to me!
“I can be your worst nightmare or your sweetest dream. But either way, I am still going to be me.” -STW